Roseworks

One day all of the pieces will come together and the big picture will not be in front of me, but all around me.

Life is a song, and I am the engineer charged with mixing every component perfectly so that all of the emotions shine through - not just the pretty ones, but the dark ones too - because they're all part of the journey, and part of the song.  

This is a song -- a mix -- with more tracks than any mix I have ever known, and each one needs attention. If I look too long from a distance, I can easily become overwhelmed and discouraged, but if I focus on one track at a time I can make each one shine and the mix gets a little better each time.

The hardest part is deleting those sweet hooks that just can't seem to find a place in the sonic landscape. Sometimes that one decision is the difference between sonic confusion and beautiful clarity.  Sometimes one track in a million accidentally gets muted and I notice that it's gone.  I miss that one track...that one harmony...that one hook...that's when I know it's a keeper.  

One day it will all come together and the mix will not be in front of me...it will be all around me.  
 

I went walking with the Hermit and returned with a few nuggets of wisdom to process and share.  Still depressurizing from the journey, but for now the Hermit says focus on the future...vision and clarity are your friend.  xo's ~b.
 

The archives of our lives
Will be found on our machines
Saved in bits and bytes
Love letters and broken dreams
Discovery sites
For scholars of tomorrow
Digging in metal with mice… 
 

Daylight breaks
Wide awake
Rain drops falling on my face
Meditate for an hour or two
Breathe in life
Recalling you

From the deepest blues
Into the voilet hues
Down to the red zone
Into the yellow sun 
It's just a matter of time 
Before the green glow finds me
Opens up my eyes
And reminds me...

In the blink of an eye
We may be buried alive
Only the love survives
Only the love survives

So rise, ascend
Breathe it in
Then let go again
Let it go again 
 

Life opens doors.  We walk through, or we let them close.  The choice is neither wrong nor right.  Consciously, or unconsciously, we always choose the path that best serves everyone involved at a given moment in time.  The outcome always offers an oppotunity to learn something new about ourselves and others, and if we're blessed, the doors that close will re-appear when we're ready to open them, and we will be that much more prepared for whatever we find....
 

Wooowww...it's hard to believe that its been over a month since turning a few long-standing habits upside down. I've been bad...I've been good...mostly doin' what I should...staying true to intention at the very least..

I'm sleepy, but grateful. Reflective, inspired, digging into dark spaces, embracing spontaneous opportunities to explore life in and out of balance, connect, take emotional risks, let go to make room for what comes next, do what feels right even when it defies ego logic, walk with Melancholy and listen instead of running the other way, finding intense compassion... sadness....euphoria....and bliss in the same breath...There's duality and metaphor everywhere.

Today, a little mindless self-indulgence is definitely in the cards!

 Die Happy

 
In a place
I can’t explain
Flooded with love
Still drowning in pain
It doesn’t make sense
But it makes me believe
There’s so much more
Than we can taste, touch, and see

           It fills me with hope
           And with love and with tears        
           And it fills me with the sadness
           Of a thousand years

                        My eyes are alive
                        My heart is free
                        And I
                        Can die 
                        Happy

Breathe deep
Attached to no one
Bigger and brighter
Than the moon or the sun
It makes perfect sense
Somewhere inside
But I couldn’t explain it
Even if I tried

            It fills me with hope        
            And with love and with tears
            And it fills me with the sadness
            Of a thousand years

                        My eyes are alive
                        Like the first time
                        And I
                        Can die
                        Happy

You peeled away the pain
And what remains
Are the colors
And the shadows
Of a thousand life-times 

 
Lovely! I literally dumped a 20oz bottle of water into the console of my car to keep these beauties alive on the drive home from the Valentine 9 show at Harrington Casino last weekend.  We were on the beach and I noticed they weren't doing so well.   Only one casualty in the dozen...poor little guy couldn't take the heat :(

Human Nature

The gig is over
It is through
But you've come too far
To let it get to you

     Not goin' down
     Not goin' under over you
     Not givin' in to
     The dark side of me in you

I see you crying
I see right through
But you've come so close
Don't run away from the truth

     No givin' in
     No giving up or down you go
     But you don't have to
     Walk alone no, no, no

The gig is over 
It is through
But you've come too far
To let it get to you

     Not goin' down
     Not goin' under over you
     Not givin' in to 
    The dark side of me in you
     
     No givin' in 
     No givin' out again
     No need to run away
     From the arms of a friend

          It's only human nature
          We're all there
          Finding our way in the dark
          There is no light 
          Except the light of the love in your heart

Gotta go deeper
Gotta go farther than the last time
Gotta be stronger
Stronger than the other side
And it goes on and on inside

          We are all there
          Finding our way in the dark
          There is no light 
          Except the light of the love in your heart